Story of my life

2010-02-16T04:36:00.002+08:00

Its not like what it used to be anymore,no more,its all my fault,but i dont care anymore,everything is too fucked up,i had enough...
goodbye...
I have no more love for this fucked up place anymore...

21 Guns

2010-01-28T23:34:00.003+08:00

Do you know what's worth fighting for,
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And you're thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something side this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I
WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU DONE AGAIN STUPID ZHENG HONG LEI!!!
JUST DIE LA!!!!
DIE!!!! SAW YOUR FACE IN THE MIRROR I ALSO FEEL DISGUSTED!!

GreenDay was awesome...and i'm so noob

2010-01-18T01:02:00.003+08:00

GreenDay was AWESOME,damn AWESOME,please come again,i will sure turn up once more,from 21st Century Breakdown to Good Riddance(Time of Your life),i love every bit part of it,and of course my favourite,21 guns.The concert was full of excitment,surprises and of course fun.Damn,really hope it was longer,please come again soon ok,and of course the best part was baby was with me.I was so noobshit,it was the first ever time i've been to the indoor stadium and first time i went the indoor stadium,so noob man,so so noob.

Anyways,really wanna go another concert soon,yeah,c'mon,anyone will do,hahaha

I really had my time of my life,thanks,
ARGH,i really want that shirt!!!

"LOUDER THAN AMERICA!!"

Wish List

2009-12-28T20:33:00.002+08:00

2009 is drawing to its end again,time really past so fast,at the beggining of the year i was still studying,and now,serving ns..

Anyways,
I MUST FREAKING GET THESE IN 2010

1.More things for baby
2.PS3
3.Ipod Classic/Touch
4.More money
5.More clothes
6.More shoes
7.More time for everything
8.Still more money
9.More of everything

Even tough i think im wishing te same thing over and over again every year,oh who cares,i must i what i want someday,muahahaha

Have you ever wondered whats the reason you are living for.....

2009-11-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

I was totally sickened and disgusted by what happen,it was the 2nd time.That person is totally FARKED UP!
I swear one day i gonna catch a glimse of your face,and if i have the chance i will land my fist on your face,i will continue to visit the same place again and again,till you are caught,i will not let you off easily,be it you trying to steal or having fun or wad ever you are trying to do,and you think its fun or exciting,let me warn you,its not fun at all,to that person,whoever you are,you better watch your back,one more time the same thing is gonna happen to be,that will be your last.

2009-11-27T20:09:00.003+08:00

HELLLLOOO!!!!!

Long time no seee

Haha,so long since i last blogged,been 'busy',haha,maybe.Oh well,nothing much has happen,just that im in NS now,made some new friends,baby has been doin well,found herself a new job,but she's sick today,get well soon baby

Oh ya,im going to Green Day concert!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

I wanna be rich...

I wanna be a hero....

2009-08-15T18:35:00.001+08:00

My life now.....
I dono....

Hey you there,you there too,everyone,its not baby fault,STOP BLAMING HER EVERYTIME!

Have i made anyone proud before......

2009-08-12T01:15:00.004+08:00

Today went lunch at pepper lunch suntec wif baby to have sukiyaki,then went watch UP at the Cathay,we sit at CENTER OF CENTER,haha,know what it means,dono right,only me and baby know,wahahahahahaha.The movie was nice,very funny,esp the dogs,and the fat kid,haha,overall a movie worth watching,but noy much 3d tough.Went back marina after that and caught a limited edition of Ko,not in picture tough haha,went home after that,Ah Ri will be staying over for one week,yeah,and hes already friend with Sasuke,heehee.

Ah-Ri

Rilakkuma Lappy leh

2009-07-27T03:07:00.000+08:00

Struggling....
In every aspect of my life
Useless....
In every thing i do....

2009-07-07T03:59:00.002+08:00

21/06/09
Changi Airpot T3
Sakae Pasta
It looks lyk theres sth on my hair but its actually reflection
So dont guess too much ok
Haha

P.S
Baby I love you

Happy 1st Anniversary!!!!

2009-06-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

YEAHHH!!!!!

Today is 1 year with evil gf le,so fast,yeahhhhh!!!!

Sure will have many many many years to go

Happy 1 year baby

HA JI HA
MA JI MA
I LOVE YOU BABY

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

PS Baby,
Wanna buy you baka and evil rose,but u was with me all along,cannot find chance to go buy,sorry :(
And don sit behind me read le,haha

Some people

2009-05-19T02:03:00.002+08:00

I don know why,some people can be so selfish,till they only care about themselves and not others.When people need help,some people jus don give a damn and care themseles.Some people always like to say some people say this some people say that and always likes to critise others.Although it may seems lyk a joke to some people,but not to others lor,people got feelings right,some people ddnt care about their feelings,but just do and say things as they wanted,thinking others will take it as a joke.Some people always like to say ppl,then others cant say back some people ma.Some people only care about themselves,everything also done le,then didnt wait for others,some people also mean,say others very what,but some people shuld know others de situation,cant always do this do that or spend this spend that ma.Some people very funny,some people think some people know some people well then also expect others to know some people very well,some people is some people de,not others de,others have others de some people.Some people also hao xiang never fall sick de meh,when others fall sick then treat them like some kind of person,hope some people who say all kena ar.Some people also do work le,then jiu end de,didnt help others,then when dono how,jus take others work and take credit for themselves happily,dono if some people will ever know about this but i really cannot let i go anymore,people have people de limits,some people have,others also have,some people think others de limit very far can stretch like rubber band,but actually some people already over the limit for very long

WEEE!!

2009-03-09T19:34:00.004+08:00

Hahah,just kidding on that previous post

Went to the Emusic awards on saturday with baby and ham,saw Raymond Lam,Xiao Zhu,Energy,Stephanie and many more,will upload the pics soon.And they got show Aaron Kwok concert coming up in Singpore,i wanna go lor,i wanna see him dance Dui ni ai ai ai bu wan lor,hahhaha.Thanks HAM de FRIEND for the tickets lor,so good,free de,hahaha,i wanna see Raymond and Xiao Zhu again,too bad Raymond never sing,but Xiao Zhu dance nice de.

Today went BP wif baby jus now,then raining,then was wearing her old slippers,and when goin home,the slipper broke into pieces lor,hahaha,in the end i gotta walk bak her house with 1 bare feet one with shoe,everyone look at me lor,hahaha,never see ppl shoe spoil before ar,hope next time stay boon lay go changi slipper spoil ar,tsk,must be retribution,caused i laughed at ham when her slipper spoil on sat,hhahaha,really got bao ying de,hahah.

Tml is finally officially the last day of my ITE life,after tml paper,it will all be over,2 years,everything happened real fast,made so much friends,so much memories with everyone,especially IT1d,you will always be a part of my life,i'll miss everyone.

And after tml,gonna go overseas finally after long time liao....weeeeeeeeeeee

Ok,im getting lazy to type liao,hahaha,
BYE BYE!!!!!

Update

2009-03-09T19:33:00.001+08:00

UPDATED

Plush machinessss

2009-02-07T17:04:00.005+08:00

Booya!!!

Long time no see,hah

Hm,kind busy plus lazy,plus alot thigns happen,while its a new year now.

Ytd

Last shooting at CCK,and i did alot of running,was glad the shooting was finally over,well,still have one last small scene in sch thats all.After that will be all the editing and portfolio stuffs,never ending~~~~haha.But still,the video shooting is done...weeee

Went Suntec/marina with baby afterthat,caused she wanna catch one plushie for her sis,and guessed what,we caught not one,but 3mickeys and 1 huge bugs bunny,had LJS for dinner then went home

PICTURES

Prezzies!!

2008-12-24T01:46:00.003+08:00

Hmmmm

Its already 1am now,

Yeah so,Yesterday

Went Queensway with baby to buy her shoes,walked around awhile then baby didnt had any mood cause no one pei her buy and try,sorry baby,so went to Ikea walk walk,then baby gradually got mood again,so we went to Anchorpoint walk walk,then bought a shirt each,ate lunch at kfc,the cleaner so weird the lor say us 'hao xin ar' cause we help her put things on tray for her to clean.haha.Then went back to queensway,baby saw her shoe right at first shop,but didnt had her size,and i tried a girls shoe lor,tsk,that person didnt even told me,tsk,and i made him so sian diao,wahahaha.So we went walk around look for other shop see if got the size,but too bad dont have,so in the end,we still went back the first shop and bought the first shoe,haha,actually the size is just nice de.

Went to Vivo after that,walked walked,went to see pets,the dogs are cute de,got one 4months de but so huge,so elagant,made me wanna hav him haha.Then saw hamsters,so cute lor,the keep squeeze together,made me wannabuy them also,and with the playground cage,haha.Spent quite alot time ther looking at the dogs and hamsters,then went walk walk,wanna went home liao,but saw 963 so many ppl,so ate dinner/supper at coffee shop,then 188 home.

P.S

I stepped on babys foot today so many times,sorry de,really accidentatly

P.P.S

Ive made up my New Year and Birthday wish list

Sasuke Plushie at Suntec City

That energetic hamster from Vivo city plus that playground cage

Cloud model from Jurong Point

Akatsuki rings from e-bay

Man u blue long sleeve jersey with Rooney printing from Queensway

Red Ipod nano from apple

Oh,one more,

I Still want that Sephiroft sword from Suntec also

Ok,now its your turn to have some action ok,

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Naruto

2008-12-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

The Naruto Madness is back!!!
Buy me naruto gifts quick
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OUGI!!!
WU SA MA DANA!!!

Weak.....

2008-12-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

Weak,im just weak
So weak,
That i dont fit to be a man
im just a fucking weakling

I wish..

2008-12-02T22:04:00.002+08:00

Wahhahaha,my wish list is slowly piling now,

I want so so much things now,

Hmmm,lets see.

-New clothes
-New jeans
-New shoes
-PS3
-Rilakkuma
-Onigiri
-Ice cream
-Naruto stuffs
-FF stuffs
-Man utd stuffs
-Shelf
-Ipod
-More money
-Driving liscense
-Onion head plush
-Lappy accesorries

Hmmm,i think theres more,hahaha
Ahhh,when can i get all theses things,hahaha.

:(

2008-11-24T00:24:00.002+08:00

Evil baby is sick,
Went to there with her untill they needed to gave her an injection
Then i cant see her anymore,
Shes in the hospital now and needs to stay there untill 7am
Get well soon,everything will be allright
I miss you

Goodbye.....

2008-11-23T04:05:00.004+08:00

That's it,im not playing soccer anymore,
Im quitting it,dont ask me why,
I wont answer it
Goodbye....soccer...
IM AN FUCKED UP ASSHOLE CHEEBYE KAN NIN NA BASTARD PERSON I SUCKS BIG TIME I AM A FUCKING IDOIT STUPID MORON RETARD FUCK MAN ME!!!!!

........................

2008-11-21T00:29:00.002+08:00

Stupid
Idiot
Naive
Guillible
Sucky
I always do stupid things make stupid decisions......

Ore....

2008-10-25T18:11:00.002+08:00

Useless....
For i am that...
Confused...lost...mixed emotions...i feel like crying...

EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

2008-10-22T19:27:00.003+08:00

OMG!!!
How could this happen to me,my is xiao hong infected!!!!!!
No,no no no no no no no no no,how could he just take it and touch it with hes filthy hands,always doing those disgusting acts,OMG!!!!
Then do already touch his collar,then everytime see see see see see,never see before ar,dig your eyes out lor!
TSK,cant he has a sense of personal hygiene,wanna do those disgusting act dont do infront of people la,TSK,make me so no mood lor,wanted to throw xiao hong casing away lor,TSK,even rilakkuma is infected,rilakkuma leh,wah piang,tsk lor,tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk
See see see,laugh laugh laugh,YUCKS,xiang dao jiu xiang tu!!!!

*WEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Ulcers~~~

2008-10-20T22:10:00.000+08:00

DAMN!!!
I hate ulcers!!!

ARGHHHHH

Its PAINFUL!!!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

school days..

2008-10-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

Fianlly im back to sch after 4months plus,what a long period,after all the attachment,the holidays,things have seems to got back to normal again.Just that we have a taxi driver teacher now,lighbulb's back again,new pe teacher,2 new teacher ive yet to met,other than that,things dindt realy change,somehow,the atachment period just dosent seems to exist sometimes,i dont know,the class seems to be as before again,patch by patch.

The foyer is much quiter,without the usual noise of the other it1ds who have went for attachment,without jojo and co singing,wihtout yijuan craziness,without xue qing and co bullying,without firdaus and co soccering,without the it1d peeps schools been quite boring.The canteen still has those food,tink just the new chicken rice stall has changes.

And wearing back uniform seems abit weird,and without the phone calls to clients,without the trips to and fro office and nus,its quite relaxing now,slacking in lessons,chatting at the foyer,awwww..i really love school.

Wish..wishes...wishing...

2008-10-09T23:29:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm...im wishing for soo sooooo much things right now,

I want an Ipod
I want a PS3
I want laptop accessories
I want W980
I want to travel
I want Ice cream
I want Sushi(not u gaga)
I want Tako
I want to meet Horikita Maki
I want to meet Manchester united players
I want to play soccer
I want to buy old comics
I want to watch shows i haven watched for a loooooooooooooong time
I want alot alot alot alot of things

Hahaha,now,if you could preset me one of any of the above,ill be more then welcome.
Its always better give than receive right,heeeheee

Maki!!!

2008-10-06T01:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY HORIKITA MAKI

i want my results

2008-10-02T14:39:00.001+08:00

I wan my RESULTS

I WAN I WAN I WAN I WAN

SOMEBODY RESET MY PASSWORD PLEASE

I WANNA KNOW MY RESULTS!!!!!

Weekends

2008-09-29T18:29:00.007+08:00

Wooo,weekends past so fast,allright,recap,
Im lazy to type,so let the pictures do the talking,
Heehee,

Friday,
09/26
Evil gf birthday,weeeeeeeeeeee
Happy birthday,so happy everything went well,wanna thanks Cassie and co for helping me,if not i would really have bored her to death.So happy evil gf love the present i gave her,so happy she love the surprised.Haha,really glad evil gf love this birthday.

Saturday,
09/27
Went to Clementi in the moring to play soccer,then went Bugis with Yuan and Richie.Met up with Peggy and Lena afterwards and headed to town,wanted to wacth Mirrors cause Yuan said he would treat,but no time slot:(
Anyway,i loved this PIKACHU at Bugis,wanna bring home sia!!!

Sunday,
09/28
Im proud to say im one of the few thousands who was at the Marina Bay circuit on this day,witnessing the 1st F1 grandprix in Singapore,the 1st ever night race in history.And it was awesome.Being in the circuit itself and watchin it on Tv is totally different.You get to see how beautiful the cars are,how shiny they are,how the engine sounds crack you ears,it was simply amazing.The cars were so fast i could hardly catch their pics,at least i did manage a few.

Monday,
09/29
Went for health screening today with Yinghui,met Desmond too,and had it together.In just a change of event,a single test,and i was downgraded from PesB to PesE,yup,E.You see,there was this heart rythm test,and the medical officer saw the results of mine funny and asked me to do another test,to check my lungs.And it turned out,my lungs capacity was smaller then others,i cant breathe in or out more air then people usually do,and thats why i was downgraded.So,i cant go into jungle and fight with animals,i cant climb walls,i cant do the things people have been telling me about in the army,sigh....
No wonder sometimes i do feel out of breath easily.......

I remember...

2008-09-24T00:24:00.004+08:00

I remember the first day when everyone was a stranger to me....when i saw everyone seems to have a partner while i do not....

I remeber few days on,when you people started talking to me....Joanne,Yijuan,Ying hui,Xin long,Mervin...

I remember joining the soccer competition with you...Isham,Firdaus,Reuben,Zickie,Zhai....

I remember slowly starting playing CS with you and then joking with you...Szemin...

I remember slowly talking to you and became friends with you....Huimin,Xueqing,Cassandra,Priscilla...

I remember how we gel with each other slowly...and became a fun class...

I remember the 2 movie outings we had...

I remember the chalet we had...

I remember how you celebrated my birthday for me...

I remember the fun days we had together....

I miss you IT1D....

Its been so long since the last time we got together...

How have everyone been doing....

Kurosagi

2008-09-19T12:09:00.002+08:00

Wooooo

Kurosagi totally rocks man,woooooo

And even tough Maki didnt had a huge role in it,it was still nice to be able to caught her on big screen.

This movie was more for Yamapi,the focus was more on him actually.

Well,go watch t if you haven,weeeeeeeeeee

I wanna do it again...

2008-09-13T02:34:00.002+08:00

When i see people doing it,at times,my blood rushes fast and the urge to do it came bak again

When i dreamt of me doing it sometime,i woke up giving a sigh and looked up the ceiling

When i saw that round object rolling around in my house memories returned

When i read books or comics about it i start daydreaming again....

I....

wanna play basketball again......

Weeeeeeee

2008-09-10T23:10:00.001+08:00

WOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Guess what?

Kurosagi is coming to town man!!1

18/09/08

Must watch ok!!!

Meaning im able to catch MAKI ON BIG SCREEN!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Im so happy

Cant wait

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!

So what if i blogged just to say this,

Its MAKI you know

Hahaha

Attachment

2008-09-06T01:09:00.003+08:00

As much as i wanted it,attachment has ended off pretty well,jus the previous few days where all sorts of problems just rise.Everything rounded off just so fast today,and i wonder if its the last of which i would be going there...

Nope

Because i promised i will go back and help out during the holidays,not everyday luckily,just to help Shawn out when he needs help.At least there would be pay,at least i would still get my rest after working so long.

The 2 months and a week spent with the people over there were fine,they were nice people.The time over there were sometimes fun,sometimes frustrating.The first 2 or 3 weeks was somehow tough for me.I had to do something i never did before,i had to shoulder huge responsibilities,if i did wrong i had to find a way out myself,i had to learnt alot of things in a short while,at times,i dont work well with my partner.And working at a place just opposite school really dosent help.I just missed school more.The truth was not once or twice,but frequently during that period of time,i really wanted to went back school and tell the teacher i wanted to quit.I had to get use of the environment,i had to get use to everything fast,and at least i could,after a few weeks.I had to travel around most of the time,and do jobs alone.It was more like a loner's job,a job that probably does or yet dosent suits me after all.

I didnt tought if i would miss that place,but i know ive learnt alot of things,not only knowledge but also mentally.At least its over now,for the moment,i wouldnt say i will wash off everything for there.But i wouldnt want to remember the tough times over there.Hmmm,i wonder if the people over there would miss me,heeheee.

Updates....

2008-09-04T01:34:00.001+08:00

Boo!!!

Ok,updates

2 more days left in my attachment,yet im not so looking forward to it.

Why?

Because its not really 2 more days left at all,

Ah,what the heck

Just hope everything goes all the way well.....

Return me!!!!

2008-08-22T18:36:00.000+08:00

I wan my wallet back!!!

Please let a kind soul picked it up

You can take the money inside

But please return me my wallet can

There are precious things inside

Things that are irreplaceble

Please return me my wallet.....

How?

2008-08-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

You asked if i could continue and help

I told you i wanted to rest

You said ok

Then you asked again because you got a huge project coming up

How can i not say ok after you said you really needed help

How can i not help you after all the trust you shown in me

But but,i really dont wanna continue anymore....

I really dont wish things will get screwed up because of this decision i made

Sigh,how..

.........

2008-08-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

Why?
Why dosent he get the same calls i get
Why he got those freedom i yearned for
Why dosent he gets scoldings
I know its concern,but i just want more freedom
We share the same blood,but why different treatment

BOO!

2008-08-17T23:11:00.002+08:00

Boo!

Hows people,awwww i miss school so badly.And hard to believe just 3 more weeks and attachment is over.Time really flies.

Stay happy all my beloved classmates and friends.I'll soon be back and catch up with everyone

Just so ya all know im doing fine

Dont miss me too much!!

Hahaha

Cya soon

Reallllly soon!!!!
EVIL GF I LOVE YOU!!!

Save MONEY

2008-07-28T01:57:00.002+08:00

I have a plan,a new plan,its called

THE SAVEING MONEY PLAN

I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
I MUST NOT LET MONEY DIE!
I MUST LET MONEY LIVE!
I MUST SAVE MONEY!
STOP SPENDING MONEY ANYHOW!
PLEASE REMIND ME TO SAVE MONEY!
AND HERES A WARNING TO ALL,
HE/SHE WHO TRIES TO TEMPT ME SHALL DIE WITHOUT HAVING A CORPSE!
I AM SERIOUS!
SAVE MONEY! SAVE MONEY
sigh,they dont know what i wans.....

LOVELESS

2008-07-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

"Dreams of the morrow hath shattered soul
Pride is Lost.
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Such is... the fate of a monster.

Even if the morrow is barren of promises,
nothing shall forestall my return.
If this world seeks my destruction...
... It goes with Me"

LOVELESS Act V
Dark clouds are forming again....sigh...

Attachment

2008-07-07T23:10:00.002+08:00

1st day of attachment was fine,boss seems abit scarly but quite funny.

All i did was learn how he install the pc and clone the system,damn,CMO stuffs,and things to remember again.

Arh,what a long 1st day,please whole 9 weeks finish as soon as possible,i miss school!!!!

Oh man,im getting tired again,and am probably getting busy again,it shucks.

Well the good part was i got to eat tako and sushi today,weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....
AH P,HAO XIANG HAO XIANG NI AR!!!!

Fly Fly Fly....

2008-07-04T00:36:00.003+08:00

Argh,

I wanna travel!!!
Haha,

I wanna sit in the plane,
fly in the blue sky,
to someplace far...

When will my dream of goin on a world tour ever come,
Will it come at all,HAHAHHHAA...
I highly doubt so!!!!
Will any of my dreams come true at all...

Science centre

2008-06-29T18:21:00.003+08:00

Science Centre was fun,i haven been there for so long and the placed changed quite alot,would like to go there soon again haha.

Looking at how my lil cousin napping peacefully after a fun day.I really missed my childhood,when i need not care about anything,mummy and daddy will take good care of me,i can play as much as i want,sleep as peaceful as i want.

Well,this is life,as you grow up,you learn,you mature,you take up responsibilities,you need to consider stuffs,you study,you go to work,you get married ultimately,you have a family,you have children,you grow old,you watch your childrens grow up,you leave this world in the end.And then,your children continues this cycle,and the next generation continues on and on....

Yet,watching how he slept so peaceful really bought me to my early days,i grew up in a sarong,to tilam,and to bed,i could remember how warmth mummys bed was,and how relaxing my bed was.Now,i wonder if i can sleep as peaceful as i used to,i turn around on bed more then i used to,i get woke up easily by noises,i woke up easily in the middle of the night.Awwwww,turn time back.....please......

"Those wings of yours,would you lend them to me?"
Sigh...will everything turn out fine? please let things turn out fine...please...

HE....

2008-06-29T01:57:00.005+08:00

Im hating this person more and more

He dosent tidy up his things and ends up whining when he lost them

He is absent minded

He is ULTIMATE lazy

He has no fitness

He always eats like a pig

He always spend money anyhow

He has no time concious

He slacks all the time

He daydreams all the time

He is irritating

He always creates lots of troubles...lots of....

HE is ME
sigh...thinking of what might gonna happen is painful....

Story of my Life.....

2008-06-27T19:10:00.007+08:00

Stars arent bright

Sky aint clear

Light has shine but dark clouds still floats

Rain has stopped

But will it fall again....

After all,its just the Story Of My Life.......
let the light shine forever can...

Tadaima....

2008-06-26T23:28:00.004+08:00

BOOYA!!!!
Im back,missed me,betcha!!!
Muahahaha,
So many things happened in this 2 weeks that i could hardly catch my breath,hmmmm how to say,up and downs?

Well,the thing is i think alot things have been let off after all those dragging,its great to have a clear mind,i might not look like it,but i was having lots of problems before,and they are cleared already,at least,for now,hahaha.

Hmmmm,and im still having my FOOD cravings,hahaha
I so wanna eat so many many things now
WAHAHAHAHAHAH

"Yesterday is history,Tomorrow is a mystery,Today?A present..."
The light is slowly shining now....maybe....

Give me a break....

2008-06-09T21:29:00.004+08:00

Im taking a break from here

Probly wont be around for the next few days,weeks,or even months

Reason being im just too tired already.
Im really outta here,i dont even know why im here,time to go home i guess,to where i really belong......
Im losing myself soon,somebody please.....save me.....

Tako Tako!

2008-06-09T02:26:00.002+08:00

Muahahah!!!
I finally haf Takoyaki!!!!

Weeeee,and nothing better wth soccer everyday now,im tired already,but theres still 1match left today.

Gah,and im here blogging instead of doin my final project,hey,ive already started ok,so dont start nagging lah,bleah.

Watching soccer everytime makes me dream of that dream again,sigh
I really wanna play soccer,but....
How long can i play it.....
I dont wanna give it up,but in any case i might have to
Lying is really painful....

Not-so-GREAT week

2008-06-06T16:39:00.005+08:00

OK,my weekends and next week are over before its gonna started.
Why?

Saturday-Project :( But Euro 08 starts weeeeeeeee

Sunday-Project

Monday-IND Attachment orientation

Tuesday-JAVA Theory test

Wednesday-JCS Project Presentation

Thursday-JAVA Phrase test

Friday-Submition of CA Final Project

So that explains so much,and dont bug me for not updating,ive actually pre updated my whole week from now,BLEAH!

I'm probly gonna reward myself finishing everything smoothly with a dozen of Takoyakis,lol.
And Sakae Sushi
And Ice creams

But if YOU,yes,the one reading now,decide to reward me instead,you'd be definetly guaranteed MORE THAN WELCOME!!!

Work HARD Honglei!!!
I still have so many secrets in me..
The rain still falls....

Reminiscence past

2008-06-05T00:12:00.007+08:00

Euro08 is finally strating this Sat,but because of those projs and stuffs made my mood down,dang it,cant you just let me enjoy my soccer.I really dont want to have workload all piling up now,and hope this and next hectic week,or probably the next 3 months shuld just fast forward in my life.You will know why,sooon enough.

Sigh,just like how its used to be,im always creating trouble with my mouth,i wonder if i would keep my big mouth shut for once.Maybe i should just keep qiuet from now on.

Its still raining...
Its maybe time i took off this smile,and keep it forever...

Save me....

2008-06-04T17:36:00.007+08:00

Argh,projects projects and tests and tests,it all shucks man
And to add up,im really really not looking forward to attachement

Damn,if things were as easy as i tought,going through school that easy was never gonna happen.
Argh,i wanna finish everything soon and relax the whole way,weeeee
And,i really wan Takoyaki!!!

Sigh,its raining again.....
A long lost buddy came looking for me today,he goes by the name Lonely
Guess i've lost to Fate again,its probably best if return to where i belong

Good things

2008-06-03T19:33:00.005+08:00

"Good things dont always happen twice,dear one"

Aslan said this in the movie Narnia,and true enough,they dont always happen twice,so if you really encountered one,treasure it,if lucky enough to have twice savour it,taste every sweetness of it.

And and,HuiMin,im not YELLOW!

You also saw it lor,only i said first,BLEAH

Dont make me spill out everything about today ok,hahahahahahaha

Lastly.....

"FOR ASLAN~~~"
Hahhahah.
Argh..hen xin ku hen xin ku...

Boulevard of Broken Dreams

2008-06-02T19:19:00.003+08:00

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street

On the boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and

I walk alone

I walk a...

My shadow's only one

that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only

thing that's beatin'

Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me

Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah ahhhh

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I'm walking down the line

That divides me somewhere in my mind

On the border line of the edge

And where I walk alone

Read between the lines whats

fucked up and everything's all right

Check my vital signs to

know I'm still alive

And I walk alone

I walk alone

I walk a...

My shadow's the only one

that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only

thing that's beating

Sometimes I wish someone

out there would find me

Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah

I walk alone and

I walk a...

I walk this empty street

On the boulevard of broken dreams

Where the city sleeps

And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadow's only one

that walks beside me

My shallow heart's the only

thing that's beatin'

Sometimes I wish someone out

there would find me

Till then I'll walk alone!

I dont know why,but somehow,its hurting.....

My sweets!!!!

2008-06-01T00:01:00.005+08:00

Saturday night will never be the same again,
Why
Theres no more soccer!!!!!!
Argh,Euro08 please arrive soon

Sigh,have i been suffocated by the past again lately
It seems to haunt me again.....
Walking down the lonely road again

Peace

2008-05-31T00:57:00.004+08:00

WeeeHeeee!!!
I realy love my new lappy lah!!!!
Hahhha,but i guess,ill soon get bored with it probably,like i always have with new things.

Anyway,today was fun,im lazy to type out happenings,so i'll just summarise,
REAL FUN,i relly enjoy being wih you people man!!

Haha,what the heck,its just pure laziness....

Blah blah blah

Peace!!!!!
Sigh,i dont really like what im doing now,probably what happen before realy robbed my confidence and all,after all,im still a gutless little boy,maybe....

Be yourself.

2008-05-28T22:33:00.003+08:00

Hmmm,just so you know

I am who I am

Sometimes its difficult to even judge yourself,coz you dont know where your place in others,and when you know it,its either you feel happy about it,or you get hurt totally.Thats because sometimes you would already have known where you stand in them,yet sometimes you only expect where you belong yet reality you are not.

In any case,i think i shouldnt care about anything now,because Im just me,i wont be able to replace anyone,and i need not as well.So being yourself is probably the best way to stay out of trouble anyway,after all,we arent living for someone else,just yet....

Muahahaha

2008-05-27T22:45:00.005+08:00

Yahooo!!
I got a new lappy,yup,own personal lappy,finally!

And that's what i wanna say,MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Theres alot more actualy,i just dont wanna speak already,its all too late to begin with.

Your goal

2008-05-24T17:30:00.002+08:00

Few days ago when Mr Sam delivered his last speech before he left ITE,it was some 20mins that made me think,what is gonna happen in the future.

He said alot meaningful stuffs to us,he was an ITE student,he said he knew our feelings,he knew what we are going through or going through.He told us,he was from a class full of deliquents,and he was one of them,skipped classes,not doing work and stuffs,and the only road he could went was ITE.But it was his last sentence that really shaked me

"Know what you want to do in life,Know your goal in life,and keep walking towards it"

Thats what he told us,he knows what he wants in his life,thats what make him there now,from a deliquent to an instructor,and hes not gonna stop,hes leaving to work in the industries.Good luck Mr Sam.

Yet,im still here wandering around,like i said before,i dont really know what is it excatly i want.Im not pursusing my dreams now,i dont even know if i could.Sigh,i wonder if i could find the purpose of my life.It seems like im keep falling and falling instead of climbing back up.If only it was that simple,i could do whatever i want,it would be whole lot easier right.

And,it seems people around me are having troubles lately,im not a good speaker,but i can be a good listerner.Sometimes,people DO need peoples help,but i know some things couldnt be spilled out easily,i really know,because there are things i wanted to but never able to speak,so yeah,just so you now,im here.
It seems i have everyone yet i have no one....

Tired uh!

2008-05-23T20:43:00.007+08:00

Argh....im tired,so tired,of everything,everything.Let me sleep forever can.

Damn,todays phrase test killed me,really wondered what will happen without my friends man,they are the ones always helping me out in class,and i really struggle without them sia.Sigh,things are goint too fast man,way too fast.

Another thing,ive heard enough of people saying ManUtd are lucky,come on,if they were lucky in the first half they would have scored 3 or more.Allright Chelsea dominated the 2nd half,but arent their goal lucky enough,they might have struck the post twice,but they only have 1 pathetic shot on target,so please dont blame it on luck that they lost,they just didnt take thier own chances.And dont put in the sending off too,what did we do to make a bunch of Chelsea players come running,and Tery even spit Tevez,you got your reward by missing the penaly.

When Manutd win on penalties people say its lucky,when AC Milan win on penalties against Juventus they deserved it,when Liverpool win they deserved it,everything but ManUtd,come on,whats this.Its getting on my nerves already.No matter what i believe Manutd deserved it,they fought their way to the final staying unbeaten.

The only thing left me dissapointed was Park not even being on the bench,he should have at least been there after his performances against Roma and Barcelona.And,Ronaldo if you wanna leave you can just leave,you can go Real Madrid or any clubs,just like my bro said,no player is bigger than club.A player can win a game,but a team win a Trophy,so if you wanna go just leave and stop talking all those "I dont know" shit.

Ok,im not angry,i just dont understand why.Respect is what i just want to see,so please,dont say this kind of things.

And,i tink im hating him more and more,why..

Seeing Stars

2008-05-21T23:42:00.004+08:00

Midnight soon

Sky is dark

Moon is round

But where are the stars

I haven seen stars up the skys for real long,cant even remember the last time either.Probably Singapore night is just too bright for the stars to show up.It'll be nice if our night are really night,yup,those pitch dark nights where the moon and stars shine our room.Hmmm,aint gonna happen,hahah.Sunsets/Sunrise too,haven witness them since 10,and it was in Aussie,if only we had a nice beach here as well,i'd camp there everyday,heehee.And,i couldnt even find one nice place i could lie down and face the sky,that wide blue sky,i'd love to soar in it someday.

Anyways,falling in love with Click Five,it was only Jenny and Mary Jane at the start,but then came Happy Birthday,Flipside and now Long way to Go.Dang regretting not going for the concert now,wonder if they will come again.

Freaking weather been so hot,and being in class didnt matter too,that's why i said air-con repair uncle is always in school.Seriously need ice cream to cool me down,maybe Snow would be hell lot better,and even tough i hate rainy days,please rain soon.

Lastly,Manchester United WILL win the Champions League later,yes,its that believe again :P

HeeHee

2008-05-20T20:06:00.002+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
THANKS 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000unlimited times HuiMin for lending your phone!!!!
I'll defenetly rememeber your kindness!!!!

Anyways,im starting to like back school again,lessons are OK,the fun things is im still having fun,and then i still have those litle group from IT1D who are always amusing me,heehee.

The sad things is that im still not sure about what to do for my final project,and im just 2-3 weeks aways frm the end.And that next term is attachment really makes things worse,sigh,so many things to do,so little time.

And one last thing,I WANNA DRIVE!!!!

Quotes

2008-05-18T00:52:00.004+08:00

Just some nice quotes i came across

"I think I've discovered the secret of life - you just hang around until you get used to it."
Charles M. Schulz

"A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down."
Arnold H. Glasow

"Without wearing any mask we are conscious of, we have a special face for each friend."
Oliver Wendell Holmes

"The fear of death follows from the fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time."
Mark Twain

"What we have done for ourselves alone dies with us; what we have done for others and the world remains and is immortal."
Albert Pike

"The most I can do for my friend is simply be his friend."
Henry David Thoreau

"True friends stab you in the front."
Oscar Wilde

"We all dream; we do not understand our dreams, yet we act as if nothing strange goes on in our sleep minds, strange at least by comparison with the logical, purposeful doings of our minds when we are awake."
Erich Fromm

At the other end,
If wounds take time to heal,do you just leave it,or put on a bandage.......

Announcement

2008-05-12T23:15:00.008+08:00

Ping pong pooong pong!

Announcement 1
Man utd are the champions!!!!
And we are heaing to Moscow for the double,get lost Chelsea!!!!

Announcement 2
Todays 6th month since Granny left,no wonder ive dreamt of her and been missing her.
How are you Granny,everyones doing quite well.

Announcment 3
I think its better now,way better,weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee even tough its still hurting and saddening

BELIEVE

2008-05-11T20:23:00.003+08:00

Just one more hour,and Manutd will be kicking off thier final league game,1 that decide if they will be the champions,and Im pretty sure they will,i have the believe in them.Manu are definetly a better team than Chelsea,regardless or team sprit,team work,quality or playing style,just look at the stats,we have scored the most and conceeded the least.And not only that,i believe as well,the Champions league will be ours for the taking.

And of course

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!

COME ON MANCHESTER UNITED!!!!
Im not gonna care about anything anymore,im just leaving things like that,coz im me,and i wont be able to replace anyone..

Felt Lighter?

2008-05-10T00:14:00.002+08:00

I haven been quite happy lately,or probably i haven been happy for quite sometime.But after today walkabout,i realy did felt lighter,its been so long since i went and walk arund singapore alone,the last time was probably few years back when i flunked my Os.Sometimes its really good to relieve youself in different ways.And ice cream was the best choice for me,weeeeeeeeeeee.

At least those burdens have been gone for now,it was really nice to have been to places i haven been to and haven for a long time,you guys should try it sometime as well,hah.

Now,the list just gets longer,
I want to go Zoo
I want to go Science Centre
I want to go Discovery Centre
I want to go Snow City
I want to go Bird Park
I want to go Airport AGAIN

Sorry Jojo for rejecting your invitation twice already
Sorry Xinlong for ditching you

Btw,Air Stewardess really made my day today,heehee.

I still miss you...

2008-05-07T17:44:00.002+08:00

When i dreamt of you last night,holding your hand like i used to when helping you move around,and that smile of yours looking at me,i knew you were missing me,and of course everyone.Its been quite sometime already,but still,i really miss you,Grandma.

Oh well,it does sting thinking back again,and THAT particular painful week will always stay inside my heart.I could still remember accompaning you to the doc almost everynight,and sometimes looking at how you have take injections everyday really hit me.Not only that,when i see grandpa watching tv alone in the living room now,and a bed less inside their rooms,it really made me think back at times,when both of them were watching the tv when i came home from school,when i always leid on your bed when taking my clothes.It makes me treasure those times now.

That's why,now,ill treasure every moment with everyone,even if its not a good one,ill treat it as a lesson,and next time when i look back,it shall be a golden lesson.And even if i dont really like a person and have some biasness or what against him/her,ill try to get along,and mind you,i can name out a few now,bleah.Thats how much im treasuring things now,be it fun or sadness,friendship or kinship,poeple or thing,i dont wanna lose them,just yet.

I want I want!!!

2008-05-06T19:26:00.002+08:00

Awww....i want so many things now

I want Subway
I want Sushi
I want Ice cream
I want Buffet
I want Pepper lunch
I want to play Soccer
I want to Travel
I want Freedom
I want........To turn time back....

Trustworthy

2008-05-02T00:13:00.002+08:00

Dang,hate it when i caught flu,and how the hell could i caught it in such freaking hot weather.It just makes me sneeze whole day,sniffing,blowing,and sneezing again.Oh man,when can i learn to take care of myself more.

Ive been always well taken care of,and part of it makes me such a pampered and spoilt child.I wasnt sure if i was being overly protected,sometimes,i do feel i am a too little too dependent.

I want to do things myself yet i screw up all the time,and need people to help clean the shit ive left,and yet,i dont even reall cleaning up for people,its always been them helping me,and not me helping them as far as my memory shows me.

And still,im not sure if im speaking out enough and share everything,and if you know me,you should well know im not the type that just tell any yahoo my stuffs and things.I keep them to myself and untill a point which i really cant take it den i let it out.You can call me a timebomb,but in the past when i treated everyone good,people just took me for granted,it makes me wonder in which place am i to them actually.

People told me stuffs and has been telling me stuffs,and i do believe them,and when im telling you im serious i am,when im telling you things they are real,when im saying thanks its sincere,when im saying sorry its sincere,when im angry i really am,when im saying i miss you i really do,when im saying you are favourite you really are,when im saying i like hanging around with you i really do,and all i just wanted to say is,im not good at expressing myself,but i know,im gradually and slowly pinning up trust to everyone.

Lefty

2008-04-29T20:53:00.004+08:00

Imagine this,you are right handed,but you hold the fork on your right hand and spoon on your left.Weird?Well,those around me everyday thinks so,hehe.Actually i dint realise it myself untill they told me.

Left-handed people are more dexterous with their left hands when performing a task and are more skilled.

At the start,im always ben envying left handers,i wanted to be a lefty den a right handed.Yeah,in my eyes they are special,and posseses a special aura.Even when playing soccer,i wanted to be a natural left footer,tried a few times,but it always goes back to my right.And im enving them so much so that i want to "make" my children be left handers,weeheehee.

Anyway,stupid bloody weather has been so bloody hot these few days,i wont be surprised if singapore fall into drought soon.I wanna eat ice creams,lots and lots and lots of ice cream.

Cant wait for F1 coming September

Yahoo for the KFC dinner today!!!!

OH ME!!!!!!

2008-04-23T17:57:00.003+08:00

Oh man!

My room is so so messy,so much that i cant even find the things im looking for,even when its just a magazine,papers or my cap,darn,hate myself for not tidying my room often.But but,its not like i dont want,everytime when i tidy up,it turns messy again few days later,guess this happens when you are sharing room with your brother and sister,the room is just so packed with so much books and stationery and bags and everything.Even my computer table is full of stuffs when im using it now.

Sometimes when it gets worse,i couldnt even find the TV remote,my keys,charger,my games,discs,den theres clothes lying here and dere,the bed's undone,anything you would see from a typical BOY'S room.

And,even when mummy nags the whole time,bro saying "room is so messy" time to time,i think its always always down to the laziness in me,i think we are superb having able to sleep and stay in such a room for sooooooooooooooo long,heehee.

ARGH!!! And i still cant find my cap :(

WEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2008-04-22T20:50:00.003+08:00

Weeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Today's a happy day,and you DUMBASS JOANNE,im telling you first its not because of what happen in the morning,i hate you all for doing and saying all those craps uh! Bleah!! I must make sure to get my revenge,muahahahaha!!!

Hmm,why happy,coz for the past 2 days,ive been able to finish my assignments and test easily and quickly,plus with the help of people of course,hee,at least im starting to do stuffs,and im slowly making a comeback,muahahahahahaha.At least unlike last week,nothing in class interest me,i did things halfway,but these 2 days,im been doing things,listening in class,having fun creating things,at least,abit of fun and interest in it,heehee.

And and,to Joanne,stop laughing at me you cruel woman,my blush was thick coz it was totall embarressement ok.Dont force me to give the silent treatment again ah!!!
BLEAH!!!
HAHAHA!!!!

Being Honest

2008-04-20T23:27:00.003+08:00

Sigh,i didnt wanna say this but,if things dont get any better,i might not be able to take it anymore.And,my real face isnt like that smile,probably more of a false one.But i dont wanna give up,i must climb up,people fall,but they should pick themselves up,they need others to stretch their hands out and pull them up,yet they should get back on their feet themselves.But,in the end its up to us,wheather we choose to stand up on our own,or grab the lending hand.Which of the option will you choose.

Im not those that can pick myself up easily,yet i dont want to be over depending on others,sigh,how undecsisve can i get.Just like what someone told me,im not comfortable at the moment,i seriously need a turning point,get back some motivation which would make me move on,and slowly,climb back up to the top.Many times in life,people look back and regret,but can you turn time back,you cant wish for a good sleep and wake up finding yourself a year back or what.Moving forward is hard and painful,but isnt it more painful if you choose to stay in one spot and dont move.

Tsk tsk tsk,move on Honglei,once this is all over,you can live your life a whole lot easier again,you can get a huge weight off you,you will feel lighter,you dont have to put on that false smile,and get your brain to think so much,get over it soon.

The Pride of Asian

2008-04-19T21:05:00.004+08:00

I remember the first time when i heard the news of Man utd signing Park Ji Sung,i wasnt convinced at that time he was gonna be featuring alot of the club,probably much more to gain sales of shirts in Asia instead,im sure many others had the same tought.Yet now,he is an important part of Man utd,his tireless runs on the pitch,unlimited energy and wonderful work rate earned him the nickname "3 lung Park",and he surely deserves what he as achieved now.

As a Man utd fan,i tend to follow Ronaldo more,but now Park has become more than a player i watch to me.He is a role model to me,and to every Asian boys,he is an idol now,i look up to him and i believe more Asians will be up there in the coming years.I remembered the match against Lille,i didnt watch it,but it was a moment every Asians should be proud of,when he came on for Giggs,he took over the captain's armband,and without any emotion,just concentration and focusing,he slid the armband up his left arm for the remaining minutes of the match,i could watch the video over and over,the scene was absolute inspiring.

Always,when i was watching Man utd match,i would think what is it like to be playing in that stadium,how does it feels like to hear the fans chanting your name,playing together with world class players,scoring a goal and showing off what you have in front of the TV.I wonder if i will have the chance to at least stand on there for once.

I hope he stays in United for the rest of his career,and one day being the permernant captain of the club,then i believe all the kids playing soccer not only in Korea,but all over Asia will be looking up to him.

Park Ji-Sung....The Pride of Asians.....

Lights out

2008-04-16T17:35:00.003+08:00

And so it seems,that glimmer of hope wont be shining afterall,thanks for EVERY single one who helped me out,even tough some of u guys said that it was unfair to me,yet i still felt,it was my fault for not having put in more effort.So dont get down,we will be in diff class,yet still we can meet often.

This was probably the same during my sec2 streaming,when most of my close friends went to a diff class from me.at least that time was still ok,we have same break times,and could go home together after school,but its diff this time round,we dont get to meet as we like,we have a total diff timetable,and to add on,most of our break times arent identical.

But just like what Jojo said,at least we fought,and tried,and if it dosent work we can only accept whats given to us,and make the best out of it.Today's a day hard to come by,going home with Jojo was amost a routine for me before,i wonder when will the next time we will be going home together again.

Sigh

2008-04-12T23:51:00.005+08:00

My current mood is indescribable,its scary,saddening,mortifying,dissapointing,and probably confusing.

But,i could only fault myself again,always,for not putting enough effort or hard work.It was probably more difficult to handle more than i expected.

How i wish,that glimmer of hope would shine on me

Sigh..........

Ore.....kanashii na....

True friends

2008-04-08T23:19:00.004+08:00

Sitting down on the dining table of a friend of mine,together with 7 others,having a steamboat dinner was the best,espicially when it might be only 1 in the coming year or 2 with those buds of mine.Xiong and Yuan would be goin NS tmr and Fri respectively,it might be quite some times before we can gather again.

I might get lonely from now on,since Richie's the only one left,but he will be busy,Jun and co will also be with their attachment coming soon,which is why,yesterday was 1 of few days i wanted the time to stop forever.We shared laughters all day,played whole night,and totally enjoyed ourselfs.

These group of guys,having knew each other from the earliest years of our secondary school,those 3 fools were always there to provide me fun,and the girls were real friends who knew us well.Its hard to meet people with common interest,common hobbies,common foolish thinking,common act of childisness,and common understanding between each other.That is why not only them,but the mates from sec3/4 the peeps from sec 5 and of course IT1d,you guys will always be my friends,friends i'll never forget,friends i'll keep them someplace in my heart forever.

Real un-cool

2008-04-04T00:56:00.003+08:00

"You did something real cool!"
"Omai kakoii!"

Ha,i really wanted to hear that from people,well it cant be help tough.I'm always doin stupid stuffs here and there,thants why even Sze min named me BAKA(stupid) Honglei,hah!Up till now,i think i haven even done 1 really cool stuff.
I believe a certain day will come,a certain day when i really did something cool,something which will make people fall in love with me,haha,something which will earn praises from everyone,something i would be proud of myself.
Untill then,it will always be Baka Honglei moments!

TO HELL!!!!!!!

2008-04-02T18:49:00.002+08:00

DAMN!!!!
Seriously,i hate myself,im dissapointed with me
I'm angry with myself
AARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I need some time alone..........

Time to grow up already.....

2008-03-31T13:01:00.005+08:00

As of today,i'm officially entering the last year of teens,and man,i don't wanna to!!!!It just meant ive gotten older again,and its time to stop being CHILDISH!But you cant blame me,boys will be boys,will dont wanna grow up right,but i think only I will have this thinking,this thinking of...I wanna grow up,but i dont wanna grow up.

If you dont understand me,its ok,dont think too much about it,hah.And just like all these years,i spend my birthday alone,im such a lonely and boring man afterall,but at least,ive got my friends who celebrated early for me,and ive got my family who always without fail buy me a cake,so,its not bad afterall.

Anyway,thanks to those who texted me and wished me,and for thos who forgotten its ok,i dont rmb everyone else either,just some special ones whom have been auto saved into my memory stick inside me.

Maybe i should really grow up already,at least i know i wont be naive like i was few years back,at least i know what's wrong and what's right,what should i do and what shouldnt i,well its 1 year older again,and "1 step closer to death again" HAHAH!

Dreams and Pride

2008-03-25T15:35:00.003+08:00

"Hold on to your dreams....if you want to become a hero hold on to your dreams.....and your pride too....."

I......wanna become a hero as well.....

Wonderful friends...

2008-03-22T19:46:00.004+08:00

This 100th post couldnt come at a better time,went to sentosa with IT1d,although,it should be called a group outing instead of class outing.Most of them didnt turned up,and i tought we might have had more fun if they had,but still i had a hell of a day.

Surprisingly,they even prepared a little something for my upcoming birthday,something i had not received by my friend for ages,a cake,and a present.Tough,i still doubt if that cake was edible,HAHA,and i loved that present,thanks alot.I got creamed all over by them,and behold,the smell of my hair after that was..PHOOF,don even think about it,and i had to carry that smell with me untill i reached home.

Anyway,cheers to those friends of mine who were present
Joanne,Firdaus,Yijuan,Edmund,Szemin,Huimin,Xueqing,Cassandra,Nick,Mervin and lastly Zaki!!!!

Watch over you

2008-03-19T23:18:00.002+08:00

As i walk out of home today,and i glazed at the sky like i always do,again,i tought.......

If i were to leave this world one day,i wanna be the sky,so that i could watch over everyone i loved in the other world.....

GAH!
I'm craving for so so so many things right now
My wishlist is gettin endless....

Stop all this suffering....

2008-03-16T02:07:00.003+08:00

Tsk tsk tsk...Hong lei...Hong lei....how many suffering must you endure
Why is it always when i thought everything has ended,it happen again
And when i stopped doing all stupid things,i was forced to do them again
Maybe everything wouldnt be like that if i was willling to speak from the start
Maybe i would have change my own fate
But,i was really happy when i decided not to right
Maybe.......
Just like Cinderella,my true story starts only afer it has ended....

Just for You

2008-03-11T16:20:00.003+08:00

After tomorrow,my first year ends,and IT1D will be split as a class,thanks everone for a fun and wonderful year,THANKS MY FRIENDS!
This post will be specially dedicated just for you.

Thanks Sisi for your moaning "HEHHHH!!!!!"
Thanks Xinlong for your china wisdom
Thanks Yinghui for your games
Thanks Joanne for accompanying me home all this while
Thanks Yijuan for forgiving me always when i pissed you off
Thanks Sze min for all your songs,and havin to sit beside me
Thanks Huimin for being my short term mama even togh you didnt wanna acknoledge me
Thanks Cassandra for being sushi
Thanks Xueqing for being LAO DA
Thanks Priscilla for being pro at maple,even tough its been so long since we met you
Thanks Mervin for your jokes
Thanks Aida for being the baby of our class
Thanks Firdaus for your "cool uhhh!"
Thanks Isham for being a Man Utd fan
Thanks Zaki for your sacarsm
Thanks Zickie for doin funny things
Thanks Reuben for doing funny things with Zickie
Thanks Javier for your teachins
Thanks Zai for being a handsome dude
Thanks Izza for being so pretty HELLO!
Thanks Atiqah for being Izza friend
Thanks Tufah for being so high class
Thanks Dave for being the "big brother"in our class
Thanks Edmund for being a wonderful rep
Thanks Pearlyn for your constant tips for us
Thanks Jia wen for being the loan shark
Thanks Hui ting for being loan sharks friend
Thanks Nick for your teachings as well
Thanks Daniel for cutting your hair,you look more handsome now
Thanks Ayethi for teaching me how to speak Myanmar language
Thanks Liqin for your cheerful smile,good luck in Poly
Thanks Yingzhen for being one of the powerpuff girls,you should realy speak more
Thanks Tenglong for your wonderful knowledge
Thanks Winson for nothing to thanks
Thanks IT1D
Cheers to everyone

We are gonna split as a class but we arent gonna split as friends right,so yeah,all the best for your last paper tomorrow,GOOD LUCK,AND ALL THE BEST IN EVERONE'S FUTURE!!!

Forgetfulness...

2008-03-10T01:40:00.003+08:00

Hmmm...something slipped my mind....
I had forgotten that normal lessons with IT1D are over
And all i had left,is 2 days of exams with them
How time past so fast,it just seems ytd was the orientation,and now,everyone's getting ready for exmas.
All the best for your papers ya all punks and dudes,GOOD LUCK!

My stage

2008-03-07T01:30:00.003+08:00

"How does it feels,to stand at your own stage"

I heard it somewhere,cant remeber it.

I believe everyone has their own "stage",someplace which totally belongs to them,might be on the real stage,soccer field,basketball court,on the streets,in the office,everywhere,a place you truely find yourself.

For quite sometime,ive been looking for my stage,and i think i still hasnt found it.Tried a few times,failed,i really tought i had found it,but i was wrong.

Well,guess i'll just have to keep on looking,and one day,if i find it,i'll surely tell you ya.
Its a promise.

Wheres the good old days

2008-03-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

Suddenly i misses my secondary school days so much la.

I miss fooling around the soccer court and basketball court after school
I miss drinking chin chow
I miss speaking chinese during Mdm Tan english class
I miss relieve teacher Miss Tang
I miss relieve/english Mr Lam
I miss eating at 163 after school
I miss Mr Tan PE lessons
I miss joking around even though its lesson time
I miss going to the back seat and sleep during lesson
I miss running around the class when there's no teacher
I miss being chairman of the class(LOL)
I miss my old classmates
I miss getting late for school and has to copy whole bunch of nonsense
I miss doing CWO even though i only did them once
I miss Miss Tan home econ lesson
I miss cleaning the whiteboard
I miss sweeping the floor
I miss 1e4,2e4,3e5,4e5,5a2
I miss the days when i was always being a childish boy even though i might still be now

It's not that i prefer those days then now,its just that school ends late practically everyday,and one day just pass so fast i could did nothing much.I love IT1D thats for sure,you are probably my most loved class now.I have fun,loving,caring,childish,handsome,pretty people around me now.I just miss those secondary school days,when we would just be fooling around more often than we were serious,when we were from a little boy in sec1,to an old antic in sec 5.Ahhh,how i wished,i would have a dream that bring me back to those memories.

Hates!!!!

2008-03-03T01:20:00.003+08:00

Oh man,i hate test,i hate exams,theres just too much a whole pile of stuffs to memorise and study.And with this brain of mine,its just too much a job.Seriously,i envy my friends who have good grades,im telling you,this aint any jealousy,i know my own level,and my eyes has always been filled with envy all along.Many always said its weather i want,but i know myself,i know my own standards.

Maybe,i just need someone to push me,someone with influence,someone...i would listen to

Leap Day

2008-02-29T16:12:00.002+08:00

Once every four years,this day only reminds me of World Cup and Euro Championships,which is also an event occuring once every four years,haha,dont laugh ok,boys will be boys.

Ok,few things to ask myself.
Why do i always cant get the things i wanna buy so much?
Why do i always like to do things which are impossible?
Why do i always say im gonna do this and that and end up not doing it?

Why,its all because of my indecisive mind which keep asking should i buy or not,and in the end they were gone,and i end up complaining the whole day
Why,its because of my stupidity and foolishiness which made me perform somethings which can never be done.
Why,just blame it on my own LAZINESS!!

Fool....

2008-02-27T19:49:00.004+08:00

Haha,why do i always want more than what i have?
Stop being a fool HongLei!
Be blessed with what you have already
Hahahahaha!!

On a side note,
I really think the human brain is interesting,things we dosent want to remember always come into mind,things we try hard to remember were always forgotten.And normally,things we remember were false,its just how we want them to turn outand sometimes,its not that we ad forgotten,its just that we choose not to remember.I think,probably its our sub concious mind acting out the work,probably,we just want everything to turn out just fine.
People says you get a flashback only when your life is ending,i wonder how will that look like.

Heehee...

2008-02-25T23:53:00.002+08:00

Psssttt...wanna know something?
I'm so so so happy today,and im not gonna tell you,MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

Anyway,today's bowling session was fun,i think if not for soccer,i would have fall in love for it.And i was having hell lots of fun,playing,taking pictures,joking,shouting,oh,and looking at "Mary Jane",heehee.If i had not lost stupid Sze Min by 1 single point,i would have been much happier!

Went down to IMM for dinner with them after that,Mervin did quite alot of shopping,and so did some of them.Just as it seems,today might be the last chance of us having grouped together,i had always wondered how time past so fast,it only seems yesterday was the orientation,and now,we are preparing ourselves for the 2nd year already...gaa...i should stop saying b4 someone cries,hahaha.

Oh and one more thing,im still not gonna tell you why im so happy,BLEAH!!!!

Weirdness.....

2008-02-24T22:28:00.002+08:00

Ha....kinda been thinking and thinking,and alot of things have been storing up again,somehow ive been having this feeling inside myself,this feeling of......weirdness

Sigh.....what have i been doing recently.....

When i was young......

2008-02-20T19:32:00.002+08:00

Picked my cousin up today,and i was just twiny winnie late,probably 1 or 2 mins,and he was there crying for the 2nd consecutive day.I think maybe he felt a lost of security,seeing all of his classmates leaving except him,and oh well,hes still a young kid.

I could still remember when i was young,i was worse then him i should say,when i was in Kindergarden,i think i cried everyday after mummy left me at school,i would need her to stay by the window and look after me,and untill i finished school,and even when she left a while just to have a coffee,i would be crying already.OK,im a crybaby,fine!All i wanted was having some motherly love,heehee.Untill now,i tink somehow im still being pampered by her,she would call when im late for home,she would buy things for me now and then,she would call home and ask if im feeling better when im sick,and she would even call my supervisor(who is her friend) and ask if im still working when i still hasnt got home when i should.

Ok,enough of baby talk,haha.Alot of test is coming up lately,and im gonna finish my year 1 soon,oh boy,i cant bear to splilt class,really,at least,let those choosing networking be together can?And lastly,im seriously craving for something right now.....SAKAE SUSHI!!!

Turning mute.........

2008-02-18T18:38:00.002+08:00

Can i speak?
There's so many things left unspoken in me
But it dosent matter now,its already to late
Its too late to fight,it ends tonight
Maybe i should just give up
It might be better off this way.......

"Wishing for tomorrow my soul shatters.My pride is shattered.My wing is broken.I can no longer fly."

Valentine.......

2008-02-14T20:48:00.005+08:00

Thanks to Sze Min and Sisi for the chocolates,the chocolate made by Sze Min was great,the class willthink so too.Its been so long since i received chocolates by someone during valentines,i really appreciate,thanks so much.

Went to town with Yuan and co,that ass took 2hours to prepare b4 we could go out.Went to kino,and i saw this Crisis Core book,which really is tempting me now,i should stop thinking about it b4 i do anything rash again,haha.

Supposed to choose our core module for year 2 today,i was quite lost about which should i choose at first,but now,ive choosen networking,and im not gonna change.I was quite interested with multimedia at first,with all the photoshop and webbie thingy,but now,VB is killing me,i really cant understand the codes.At least during networking i still know whats going on,and i really dont wanna split class,i will definetly miss these guys.

P.S
I have alot more things i wanted to say...juz that im too lazy....maybe...

Heal the World

2008-02-09T18:06:00.000+08:00

Read about the Edison Chen scandal this morning,i was surprise when i saw this shocking news,thinking it was fake,i ignored it untill more and more news were out.I could still remember how i admired him during my early days,his handsome cool face,but look at him now,his future looks dark.Its really a wonder how celebs do this kind of things,you see Lindsay going to rehad,Britney going nuts,Paris Hilton jailed,Vannesa anne Hudgens photographing herself.I wonder,if they were just normal people,will they do this kind of things.

On the other side,i dont understand how human can kill their own species so easily.People get killed,murdered,and culprits get their hands full of blood,and yet most of the time get away.News of war were always heard,would this have happened if neither side started the fight.Shouts of Racism were always heard,we might share different skin colous,but arent we humans as well.You see people doing anything just to get what they want,you see bribes among politicians and police,you see all sorts of things going around everyday.

PEACE,a word used so many times,yet it we would never see it.I wonder if theres gonna be a day,when people walking down the street,giving one another a little hug,telling one another how beautiful you look,giving a little smile to one another,showing their love for each other........

Happy Chinese New Year!

2008-02-08T16:11:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm...CNY again,red packets,bakwa,pineapple tarts,love letters,sweets,all kind of stuffs come to mind,and of course,reunion dinner with family.Already its the 2nd day,but ive not really been kept busy,lol.

At least,i got get some rest now,having been working after school and everyday for the past 2 weeks or so,ive been getting real tired.That's why i love it when i could sleep all the way till noon for the past 2 days,haha.

Last but not least,i got my long awaited PSP,yeah,Muahahahahahahhahaha!!!!!!!

Tired

2008-01-31T16:21:00.000+08:00

I'm tired
I'm really tired
Tired from all kind of stuffs
I just wanna have a good rest day,where i can be free from everything,and just close my eyes,and go into my own world
A day when i can hang out wif my buds
A day when i can chill out
A day i can do anything i want
A day my mind is blank
A day when there's peace...............